Have you played the game Jenga before? Essentially, it’s a tower of blocks and the objective of the game is to remove a block, placing it on the top of the tower without knocking the tower over. The first couple of moves are easy because the integrity of the structure is still in tact, but as the game progresses it gets more and more difficult. There is usually a point in the game where I scream, “There’s not a move! If I move anything, everything will fall and I’ll lose the game. Tell me what to do!”
I struggle with insecurity. My mind is constantly asking, “How am I going to mess it up this time?” It doesn’t matter what it is… a message I’m preparing, an event I’m organizing, or a conversation I lead. I walk on egg shells so I don’t upset someone or shift their view of me. I don’t want the Jenga tower of my life to fall. I don’t want to move the wrong block and have my life collapse. When I try to find confidence in myself I scream “There’s not a move! Tell me what to do!”
I’m trying to produce good fruit through me. I am trying to live this life by me. This goes straight against the teaching of the Gospel. I’m trying to build this life around Kingdom of Self, this tower I made.
In Daniel 2, King Nebuchadnezzar has this dream of a statue made of gold, silver, bronze, iron, and baked clay. And this statue is crushed by a rock carved from a mountain not by human hands. This rock crushes the statue, gold and all, to dust. Daniel interprets the dream as the different kingdoms, including Nebuchadnezzar’s, will eventually fall.
During the reigns of those kings, the God of heaven will set up a kingdom that will never be destroyed or conquered. It will crush all these kingdoms into nothingness, and it will stand forever. That is the meaning of the rock cut from the mountain, though not by human hands, that crushed to pieces the statue of iron, bronze, clay, silver, and gold. The great God was showing the king what will happen in the future. The dream is true, and its meaning is certain. – Daniel 2:44-45
My kingdom cannot sustain me. My kingdom won’t even hold itself together. That’s the thing about Jenga, the tower is supposed to fall. When we experience the true grace of God, our tower will fall, crumbling down to nothingness. But, in the same moment we enter into the Kingdom of God, a Kingdom full of grace, love, and redemption through the power of the Cross.
Where does your kingdom need to be crushed by the Cross of Jesus? It’s time to surrender.