Do you remember being a child? Did you ever lose control of yourself because you couldn’t have just one more piece of candy? Or cry uncontrollably because your parents told you to stop pulling the dog’s hair out?
Since I’ve become a father, I have been reminded of many foolish thoughts and actions throughout the course of my life. A few months ago my 18 month old son, Levi, specifically reminded me of some of my foolishness.
While Kelli and I were preparing dinner, Levi got into the dishwasher and pulled out a knife. I immediately grabbed his arm and carefully got him to let go. “No-no, this can hurt you because you don’t understand how to use it yet.” Apparently he didn’t like my reaction, because he absolutely lost his mind. He backed up to the wall, turned around, and started to bang his head against the wall in anger.
There have been many times where I have argued with God about the boundaries He’s given His followers. These are raw and honest arguments that I’ve had with God:
8 year old Andrew: Oh man, just shot a squirrel after dad told me not to kill anything. I think I’m gonna try and lie my way out of this one. Lying can’t be that bad, God, that’s a dumb rule.
God: How’d that work out for you? Your daddy wore your butt out. I’m glad you learned early the consequences of lying. You have a father and mother that truly care for you.
Teen/College Andrew: My parents are lame! This “abstinence” stuff is stupid! Why can’t I have sex before I’m married? I just don’t understand why You would make something that feels so good, but keep it from us.
God: Because I know what’s best for you. You don’t know how to use it yet, and you won’t until you are with your wife. And you’re right, you don’t understand. My ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts. (Isaiah 55:9)
24 year old, newly married Andrew: You were absolutely right about sex. Now, let’s talk about this whole money thing. I should be able to spend my money the way that I want to. And why do You demand that I give You some back? That’s not fair. Plus, You don’t really need it.
God: Well, son, I’m not demanding that you give me your money. I have given you everything you have; you are only managing what is mine. I want you to have joy and peace in your finances and when you make giving back a priority, you will gain a financial peace that the world doesn’t understand.
29 year old, 6 years married, father of 2 Andrew: You were right about money… and a lot of other things. Ok, let’s talk about raising these 2 boys You gave us…
Life is full of unknown. We understand more than we did the day before, but we will never fully understand everything. God is the all-knowing, all powerful, omnipresent, glorious, and loving Father. He loves us. There is a better way and I can promise you it’s not your way (Proverbs 14:12)
Are you ready to stop banging your head against the wall in anger because you can’t play with knives? Will you stop wailing long enough to listen to your Father?