**Sorry for the delay in posting this week. We had a staff outing on Monday and were unable to post. Now, back to our regularly scheduled blogging.
I have always loved the song The Stand by Hillsong United. It’s one of those songs that sorta rises above the rest. Here are some of my favorite lines:
- You stood before creation, eternity in your hands. You spoke the earth into motion, my soul now to stand…
- You stood before my failures and carried the cross for my shame, my sin weighed upon your shoulders, my soul now to stand…
- I’ll stand with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the one who gave it all. I’ll stand, my soul Lord to you surrendered. All I am is yours.
Before becoming a father, I would sing songs thinking about my view of God. Since becoming a dad, music is different for me; I have a deeper understanding of God as my Father and am able to relate to His role as a father.
God has used my two boys to show me His love for me. Before being a father, I didn’t know or truly understand the feelings, emotions, and responsibilities that came along with this role. I only knew what it was to be the child. And let me tell you, I can be pretty childish. Now that I am a father, I know the weight of being a father and what a father feels.
Levi, my one year old son, is in those unbalanced, stumbling stages of learning to walk. He’ll gradually stand up while trying to balance himself, reach his arms up as high as he can, and say, “Daaadaaa” so that I’ll pick him up. Levi’s reach overwhelms my heart with joy and excitement!
On the other hand, when Levi is crying and screaming because he’s run out of Puffs (baby snacks) and he doesn’t understand why we won’t give him more, I realize that he doesn’t understand something better is coming. I withhold from him because I want him to experience the fullness of supper.
Now when I stand with arms high and heart abandoned, I’m not doing it as just a child anymore, but as a child who understands how his Father feels. When the words “in awe of the one who gave it all” leave my lips, it’s not a simple thank you for the life He gave, but an understanding of a Father’s love that would give anything to save his children.