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Not my will…

God can and will use anyone to do anything. Will you obey?

I was in St Louis, MO when everything changed. I was at a college missions conference with a bunch of students from UWG CCF. The only reason I had attended was because I had always wanted to see the Gateway Arch. I had no interest in the conference, nor missions.

God had been doing something in my heart, but I tried to ignore it.  But at the conference, I had a couple of eye opening conversations with two high school guys from somewhere west of the arch that made things clear for me.  All that was left was for me to obey! 


When I turned 15, I knew I was going to be a journalist. I had a business card in high school with the inscription “the next Dan Rather” under my name. I was going to be in New York by my 30’s, living across the street from ABC, and I would be doing the nightly news. David Muir had nothing on me and I had my sights on his job.

By the time I was 21, I had met with a President, interned at CNN, worked with GPTV, and was doing national sports on the radio in Atlanta as was one of the youngest journalist out there. I was set and had it made, but then I took this trip to St Louis.  The call to be obedient was the only drink on the table for me to pick up and swallow.

In that moment, I had this rush of excitement, fear, wonder, hope, and much more as I decided to let go of all that I had attained at such a young age and trust God with the future. 

I remember praying, “I know You’re doing something in me, I don’t know what it is, but I trust You, I’ll do whatever You want.”  Eight months later I would resign from Clear Channel in Atlanta, begin an internship at Southern Hills, and enroll as a full time student at Atlanta Christian College.

I have never looked back, there is no need to when you trust him with it all and are obedient! 

More times that not, the cup of obedience is hard to swallow.  It involves giving up our dreams, expectations, and comfort, but the drink is necessary and allows us to enjoy all the more a relationship with the King. We receive hope with every drink! “My God, my God, if it is possible… yet not my will but yours.”

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Student Pastor at Southern Hills Christian Church. Hiking, Speaking, and Writing are some of my passions. "His power is made perfect in my weakness" 2 Corinthians 12:9!

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